Reflection on 2011

As much as I hate writing about myself, I think this is the most appropriate time to have a yearly self-reflection. What will 2011 be remembered for about myself? Has I spent the time well? Have I done something for the greater good of myself, people around me and the world?

2011 was supposed to be a gap year. It’s a year of self-discovery. I tried working with my parents in our family business. I struggled through a nine-to-five culture of the corporate world. I got out of it and thought that I would be able to go back to school, doing something I really enjoy doing: being a student, just like how a pal said to be that if I ain’t in a hurry I should go back to school.

Unfortunately the plan was interrupted by something totally out of my control. I am not short-listed for the program I’d like to do, instead I got a second preference which I don’t intend to do, so I chose not to; and where I am now is in the position I was at the end of last year, what’s next then.

It feels as if I am trying to avoid asking myself this question and to make decisions. Going back to school seems to be the easiest option which gives me what I needed: well-defined goals. After spending a bit of time doing what my parents do, I felt, things are obtained far too easily. It lacks motivation and it felt as if I am jobless. On the other hand, I know I couldn’t cope well in a corporate ladder culture. Having spent considerable amount of time in a nine-to-five job, I felt weak and powerless. My ideas were nothing to my superiors and I was always unable to make choices even for the greater good of the company. And with the amount of work they gave me, I didn’t even need to be there in their office full-time at all.

So what’s next then?

I’ve come up with three possible options now and they shall be revealed later this year.

Happy New Year 2012 everyone.